HI HI HI everyone. Today I'm a very happy girl. Hehe, this is cause I went for choir after a million yearssssss. But yeah, people were nice and smiling at me, hehe, and when i came in, people waved at me! Happy. Then talked and finally saw Davin, who looked really good with his new hairstyle, ahhh so happy. There is an Anderson junior, who recognised me, so oklah. I wanted to stay to chit chat with Dav, but I decided to go back with Michael instead, a bit regretting cause i really want to chit chat with my choir boyfriendings. Hai... but anyways, I'm just very happy lah. Feeling a bit bad, cause now I have the WSC thing and Touch and I was thinking of taking a one-year break from choirings, but I'm feeling bad cause i think they need people and apparently, this year's concert is Greatest Hits, and it's going to be a big affair,and I do not wanna feel left out. hoho.

okay, so like tmr is my sisters birthday. I have an appointment which i feel like skipping but i can't but oh well. oklah going down to watch project runway bye.

have fun!

love,

me

hi friends. it has been quite a while since i wrote something here, eh. For the sake of my bored sister at home, who needs something to read when she's taking a little break from work (and Father), and also so that she will be updated about my little life here at amk and NTU.

so anyway, as usual now it's touch and school only. choir starts tomorrow, but it's just the welcome tea session, so i don't know whether i should waste my time or not. Touch, as usual, manages to suck me into its body. Just when I was contemplating giving it a break competitively, now I'm still attending trainings, and feeling like I need to buck up and play well. I hate this feeling, of knowing you can do better than this, wanting to do better, but you're just too ill-disciplined to do anything about it. But, me being me, always like to look on the bright side of things. Like I know I have my positives, so I sometimes comfort myself with that, although in reality, it's just not good enough. But like in the story Little Giants that I watched just now, they play football not cause they're good at it, but cause they like it and they enjoy. Even if out of 100 times you lose 99, that one time you win, can be really worth it. oh well.

Other than that, subject registration has been a total BITCH to me. First I dropped BF307, so i registered for chinese, so take 3 electives. Then spanish opened up, so i thought, why not, THEN yesterday i saw vacancy for bf212, but ti would require me to change to qiaoy bf215 class, so i thought today can change, then by the time i logged on, IT WAS GONE. so i was stuck again. then just now at 9 something, i finally got a slot for research methods with leen and yijun, but that means i had to drop spanish, which made me a little sad, cause i was became really excited at the thought of learning another new language. this sucks.

it's scary how sometimes things are not how you think it is. secrets are scary, it's sad and sometimes disappointing. i wanted to upload photos! but am too lazy to do it. another day perhaps.

have fun people!

bye!

love,

me

hi friends, it's been quite a while since i blogged.typed in a few entries before but never got around to finishing them. anyways, lemme start with some lusty comments.

the good thing about travelling is that you get to look at people. sometimes you mock people, sometimes you look at them and feel good about yourself. you think some girls and pretty and you go shit, why am i not as pretty. and then comes the best part, which is looking at cute boys HAHA. yesterday i saw this boy, face not that cute, but legs damn damn hot. he's a rugby boy cause his friend and him were talking (freaking loudly). i just needed to rave about the legs, super hot. then today on the way to work, i saw this cutie boy who was sleeping like an angel. skin not so good, but very cutie.

anyways, stuff has been happening, some good, some not so good. some which i can say, some not. but yeah.i wish i could just say stuff, be honest to myself and to the people around me, but i'm a person with lotsa tact. i care too much about what people say and what people think. oh well, at least i know i won't hurt people's feeelings.

sometimes when you talk or say something, you need to think. although i allow people to mock me, mock my forehead, mock my lack of speed, but you need to know that face matters a lot to me. don't push it, just cause i don't say anything, doesn't mean i don mind. oh well.

okaylah, damn sian. bye already.

love,

me

today, is a saturday. I was very sad because i woke up late AGAIN, so i didn't play touch. now i have to wait like 2 weeks cause the boys have their contact game on sat :((((((((. i hate hate hate hate my out of control sleeping, i dunno what to say about myself, i'm damned pissed at myself, damn angry.

so anyways, i have so many things to buy but too little moolah to get everything haha. At least before the gss finishes. I got my shoes, i still needa buy one more shoes, clothes, contacts, pay my handphone bills, lingerie, and slippers, a new cap, and stuff like that. but oklah, i think can lah, if i do a cheapo shopping thing.

i think that sometimes it's really messed up, my head. i want somethings sometimes, but yet i don;t want it other times. Like for example, I wanna go out with people like friends and stuff and when i have nothing to do i wish somep people would ask me out. but then when people ask me out, i'd not wanna go out haha like leave me alone. only sometimes lah. i'm generally a happy person who likes company.

pictures!!

our first car ride with Ivan! he can drive now, and lucky for us, there's only 5 so we all can fit nicely into a car! yay!

ORANGE, at my current after work hang out with the future brother in law.

my first time to hard rock to watch kumar, who was damn funny and damn racist. i think this is a nice photo, no albedo ahaha. lishah, me, aishah.

hahaha, next door neighbour, while waiting for me to get ready. it was my chinese exam and it was her biz law.

tuna, sitting on my notes while i was studying for my exams! so cute horh, suddenly come and sit in front of me while i'm studying.<3sssssssssssssssss.

haha, one of those days in the room. all my best friends, cat included.

yijoon's constant habit of digging people's nose.

putting my cutie polka dot hairband to good use. our final marketing presentation, here with nadz.

okay i think that's all. bye people enjoy!

love,

me

hi everyone. everyday when i start work i start my day with the song please forgive me by bryan adams. it's a realleh realleh nice song so you should look it up at youtube. i can listen to it like 10 times in one day yay very happy <3sssssssssssssssss that song.

anyways, yesterday was friendly against sp, we won, although i didnt score again and dropped many many balls :((((((((. but oklah. anyways, aileen sprained her ankle can you believe it one week before youth in touch. she has been training regularly only to have her ankle sprained. i feel for her, i hope her ankle gets better cause our friendings is getting more zhaiiiiii by the day. two tries in two games woah. haha.

my papa just gave me half of his rice and chicken yay i'm damn hungry now can fill my stomach before my sister and i go down later.

aiyah, i got so many stories to tell, but i;m just too lazy plus i need to filter them out (cause of the sisters.) hahahah JOKE. okay lah bye bye lah.

love,

me

hi friends yesterday was training which sucked couldn't catch any balls i was quite pissed with myself plus no core tried sianz hahaha i guess tries for me come once in a blue moon. anyways after training i went back to hallings and omgggggg, i saw tuna she's so poor thing so hungry but kena scolded cause she went inside the room i miss her a lot alot alot alot more than words can describe it i even have her as my handphone main display hahah so loser no boyfriend at least got cat girlfriend.

anyways my papa passed his flu to me, my throat hurts like shit, but i rarely fall extrenely sick, so i hope this is just a passing flu that will not be full blown.

i love photobucket can upload many many many photos i guess i was just suaku didn't know it existed.

okay, i need to go and makan already bye lurbs you my plens i miss you loads, wish more saturday night suppers would happen cause my colleagues don laugh at the same stupid things we do okay bye,

love,

me

okay trying out new ways to upload photossss

TIM AND ME.

ME AND JEFFRY'S DAUGHTERS. <3

SYAZLINA ALI AND ME.

LISHAH AND ME.

AISHAH AND ME.

so anyways, the saturday was spent slacking. yesterday i met tim who was back from hk for dinner after my game. then we went to arab street to meet my sister for a while. then after that, i slept over at my dad's. and this morning i woke up at 9.30!! when i had game at ny. i was quite sad cause by the time i got ready and all it would be damn late. damn sad lah.

i'm addicted to PLEASE FORGIVE ME by bryan adams loves loves loves loves it. aiyah sian i wanna go home already okay bye. supper with the ladies laters yay

love,

me

hi hi everyone. wah now my updates getting regularzzzz arh. this is because i'm getting sick of numbers, typing in all the adsl numbers for the paperwork. just the other day i had to count single individual pieces of paper so after a while i got sick of english, then i counted in malay, then chinese, then german then even in some indon dialect that my ex maid thought me many years ago. it was just from one to ten, cause i counted in sets of ten so nothing to challenging.

one two three four five six seven eight nine ten

satu dua tiga empat lima enam tujuh lapan sembilan sepuluh

yi er san si wu liu qi ba jiu shi

eins zwei drei vier funf sechs sieben acht neun zehn

siji loro telu papat lima enem pitu wolu sanga sepuluh

hurrah. i figured this entry will take many hours cause i have to alternate between work and blogging. today is a sunday and my sisters and i are working cause we got a deadline on tuesday yay. my two older sisters are in the room while i;m in the dining room so they are sharing secrets and gossiping and not including me in. haha. ask them to share they said that i was kepo. Then my mother called me about some important issue so i was like i got story to tell! but they don wanna come out. so when i went inside the room just now, they were like, you bribing us to come out is it. Then i was like, mother just called me. then they were like, about what? then i was like, don't know. ha ha ha!

so anyways, yesterday i finally looked up the lyrics of rihanna's umbrella so i can sing it properly instead of just hummimg the tune. and i really liked the lyrics, maybe just the chorus. i know, damn lagged, but i like the use of a simple everyday object like that and expressing your loyalty and shit like that.

okay from this paragraph it is like 4 days later. thursday. it's been quite a hectic week with me staying over at my dad's for a few days already and working till late at night. yesterday, wednesday, i went for a jog alone, cause i was feeling super unhealthy. my sisters didn;t wanna follow so i had to jog alone and omgggg, i wanted to dieeee. i had to even walk about 100 metres cause my stomach was hurting haha my stamina sucks like shit. i need to exercise more. more push ups, more arm strenghtening.

anyways, i lost. although it was a game at first, i just ziji imagined it was. but yeah. i lost, but it's okay. its nothing ha.

timetable planning is killing me. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

okay bye. have fun.

love,

me

yay updating again. my eyes are hurting like shit but i'm still going to take a few minutes to update this lil green thing. i'm super hungry now, there's nothing to eat, so i'm looking forward to dinner. although it may just be the 2dollars ice cream from the ring-a-ling-a-ling ice cream man downstairs.

ok, i'm really hating my face now. ever since exams more pimples have been sprouting out, especially at my eyebrows i'm really damn sad now okay. i just wish all the pimples and scars would go away so my face will be pretty again, and i don have to cover anything up with concealor sadz. plus my eyebrows can't wait for them to grow back so i won pluck them so thin again. ok, enough about being so concerned about my outlooks cause still pretty ha.ha don mock me.

okay i dunno what talk about but i shall blog about stuff. as all of you know, i have been workings at my dad's, which is good cause everyday i turn up with shorts and teeshirt but it's baD cause i always feel like lazing around. hoho. my lil stepsister who is 7 years old, is super super super noisy which can get really really irritating. she actually asks for homework for her to do cause i think she's really bored cause she no friends here for her to play with and everyone else is working including her mom. so she dances, TALKS NON STOP and sings non stop too. and she can't sing for nuts. hoho. her mother actually talks to me more now which is weird cause i'm not really a fan of hers and i have never actually spoken to her than like "yes, ok" and lil sentences like that. but because of work, cause she helps out oo, i had to talk to her that time, like actually be nice to her lah. then after that, she talked to me like telling me that there's bread in the kitchen that i can eat and actually sound nicer ha. i have to be nice back too right, so oklah. so long we don become best friends okay already haha if not my mother would just kill me hahaha. oklah bye lah.  more stories next time okay?

have fun bye

love,

me

now it's my 5 mins break from the never ending paperwork so i shall blog a lil bit.

my neck is aching and so is my body. yesterday was training, my second in a million years and apparently we played a 30 min game without sub and halfway 5 be 6 omg i wanted to die i'm telling you. i really wanted to die, but i guess it's good cause it pushes us and our stamina and shit like that. and so my body is aching now. on wednesday we played badminton with my sisters and colleagues so fun lah, reminded me of those days when we used to play badminton almost everyday during the holidays at our grandma's place. I figured i suck at badminton cause i simply have no arm strength which is a lil sad but it's okay, cause i had fun. and then we went bowling haha, but only played one game cause it was already 12 +++ and it was after badminton, so the girls were pretty tired although the boys could play some more. sucking at everything is really not very good for me and my morale.

i guess going out with my sisters and colleagues (including one sister's boyfriend) is real nice nowadays. cause like we go out at night and hang out, it's something different from hall life which is basically hanging out in our room occasionally, and not going anywhere in particular cause going out means taxi money, which we obviously don't have. plus we have no boyfriends with cars, or even boyfriends except for yijun. so yeah. lucky thing it's not only about like hanging out to just eat and talk, but now they wanna play badminton, bowling and stuff like that. yeah. i need to go out with my friends more.

so anyways, i have so many pictures but i'm just too lazy will do it soon lah.

gossiping is really, like a total bitch. apparently i was accused of being the source of a malicious rumour omg, i got a shock of my life lah. cause i'm really not that sort, i mean things like, "she's so irritating" or "she's so ugly", is oklah, but serious things! i couldn't believe my eyes when i read what my friend told me i was like what??!!  but too bad i couldn't find out who said i said those horrible things lah. i have never been accused of things like that, so i kinda felt like shit the other time. i'm just not like that. i'm not a bitch about things like that. i can pretend to be bitchy and mean, but i'm not. i was really bothered lah, but after a while forgot about it already cause i didn;t really interact with the party involved or talked to them so oklah.  i guess only when i come face to face with that person then would the botheredness come back lah horh. sian. i hate this.

ok more than 5 mins already.

so you wanna play this game? this is my game lah. let's see who will last longer, cause i know i will. will tell you who won.

okay have fun people.

love,

me